tired

I am so tired recently,I wanna relax for awhile,just awhile.

Sometimes,it's look fine on me,but maybe there have some problem interior.I am tired for everything include study,exam,friendship and interpersonal relation.I realized that I have no a lot of power to overcome all the challenge that may come my way.

Be an optimistic girl and keep fighting

Don't be influenced by anyone anymore!Everyone have their own life and attitude.
Pessimism is not necessary in our life because it hasn't any profit to our life.
It just make us unhappy,upset and suffering.
No matter what difficulties may come our way,we must be happy and optimistic everyday.
And must never lose heart.

One more year left,I can't relax anymore from now.
I have to keep fighting for my future as far as I can.
Others do not take their life and future seriously，it’s doesn't my matter.
I can't change and force them to be serious for their tomorrow.
The only thing I can do is I must have the willpower on my major study and skill learning.

回不去了

才发现，已经很久没有经营这里了，
太多事情，让我突然想起原来自己还有一个可以发泄的地方，
现在才明白，这个blogger纯粹只是我用来诉说心事的地方而已。

我有个怪癖，
很严重的心事我都不喜欢跟人说，
不然就是跟人说得不清不楚，
不是对方不适合说心事，而是对方只是没有过我的经历，不明白我当下的感受。

越是靠近我，我会反弹得更厉害，
我不喜欢，别人透过我的眼神，透过的我语言，去了解我的每个细节，
你不是我的家人，也不是我的男朋友，
我不想要赤裸裸的摊在你面前，
我想保留自己的空间。

我很厌烦你这样，
也许你认为这一系列的动作都是以前你对待我的态度，
可是很多事情在因为一句话后会严重变质。

我真的累了，我已经很努力不去避开，我很努力想要变回以前，
但力不从心，我自己也在懊恼为什么自己可以用这种态度去对待一个只是想要关心你的人。

我们回不去了，你知道吗？
我已经很努力很努力的想要使一切变回原形，
可是我的心，我的脑，他们清楚这是不可能，
所以我现在很痛苦你知道吗？
我一直在压抑自己，
我一直在忍受你在我面前转，
我一直逼自己不可以去拒绝，
但你懂吗？这种感觉，是“口是心非”的感觉
自己被逼着要做自己不喜欢的事情，
我想要停止，
请你帮帮我好吗？